Regression and life

Things happen not for a simple reason.
Think about statistics, it's like multiple regression, there is never a single variable you put in that formula and then you get a perfect answer out of it.
Life is complicated, unpredictable, full of changes and surprises; that's what makes life beautiful.
We are never able to predict what's happening the next moment and take full control of everything.
Just like in regression, we can never account for/control for every single variable that might have impact on the results!
Yes, it is hard when I feel not in control, it is hard when I feel down and frustrated.
But I never lose faith and never lose hope.
I take whatever I have now and give my hope a best shot, even if the results doesn't turn out exactly how I want it to be, at least I tried hard to make the best out of it.
There are always so many unexpected variables out there which influence my output. But at least, I try my best to conceptualize this formula, the formula called "life".

Academia

It really seems like I am pursuing a career in academics now.
However, I'm not really interested in having my career purely in academia.
I want to do something more down to earth, more applied, more meaningful, not just focusing on getting my things published like a lot of academic people who are after fame and power.
I don't give a crap to fame, reputation, power or money.
I want to use my knowledge to help people, to help the justice and happiness in the world.(Sounds very ambitious? Ha ha, I don't know how I can do it,but I try my best to go towards it!) I want to contribute my all to make a positive difference.
Now I am still young, I have nothing to lose, so I dare dream big to make a bigger difference. I am not afraid of failing, because really, what have I got to lose anyway?
If I fail to fulfill my big dream, I then adjust it to a small one, make a smaller positive difference. Even if the difference I make might be very tiny, at least I try my best, no regret whatsoever.
That's what I believe in, my expectation of myself. It hasn't really changed.
People say that I am not realistic, but what is reality anyway? The realities they talked about are constructed by them, constructed by other people, taken for granted as how the world works.
I want to live in the realities constructed by myself. I define what's real in my own world, as long as I don't hurt other people, don't invade other people's rights, what's so wrong about it?
Yes, I am stubborn in my own way. But if I don't give it my best try, I know I will regret for the rest of my life, and I don't want to live my life in regret.

Becoming a "blogger"

It's not been a long time since I became a regular user of blog.
My first time using blog was in my Social psychology course where every student taking the course must create a blog of three to four group members and make the blog a place to discuss anything of their interests.
So did I started to use blog as a way to share my thoughts and anything interesting happening around me.
After my coming to England, blog became one of the major way through which I share my daily life with my family and friends back in Taiwan.
So my first blog was in Chinese,of course "Traditional Chinese", on http://www.wretch.cc/blog/soarhuang.
It is pretty amazing,and somehow scary, to be aware of how much technology has changed my life in the last few years.
I changed from a person who is not familiar with computer, not even checking my e-mails regularly, to a blogger who shares her experiences on the internet and check e-mail and blog everyday!
I don't know how long I can live without the internet here in UK...more than 6500 miles away from home.
Now blog seems to become one of the major way that I feel connected to my family and old friends, and this is the feeling and need to being connected that positively reinforce my using of blog.
On one hand, I hope I won't become too dependent on the internet, but on the other hand, I hope to keep my friends and family updated of my life event so they won't be missing out anything.
Put it in one way,I'm learning to master these skills to use technologies,but put it in another way,the technology is also gradually taking over my time and my life.
It is a really scary feeling to notice how much more time I spend on using my computer and how incapable I am without a computer, especially when I'm alone in England.
Anyway, I'm not a pessimist, I just remind myself of the down side of using new technology while enjoying the bright side of it.
It is better to be aware of both side of one thing rather than accepting it without any concern, isn't it?